Monday Morning Meditation:
You got the kids fed and to school. You fed the dogs. Got a protein smoothie in your stomach. Everyone’s been fed. You’ve got an hour before Pilates. Plenty of time to meditate.
You grab your phone and go into the living room where you’ve created a mediation space. You need a comfy chair, a diffuser, headphones, and that’s all you need. Except you need to refill the diffuser. Take ten minutes to scroll through Pinterest to find just the right essential oil blend. You go with one called “Meditate” because it seems stupid not to.
You get the diffuser all set and ready to go. You sit down and cross you legs. Instantly your hips start to ache because you are 44 and that’s your new normal. You get back up to find two pillows to place under your folded legs so you won’t focus on your hip pain the whole meditation. You make a mental note to stretch more.
You open your Calm app and click on Day 3 of your “21 Days of Calm” mediation and try not to feel guilty that you started your 21 Days 45 Days ago. You reach over to grab your headphones that you always leave on the table only to realize they aren’t there. You spend the next 10 minutes trying to figure out where you left them. You go into the boys’ bedrooms to look and get sidetracked making their beds (see previous post as to why this is a priority.) Find the headphones in your own bathroom, unsure how they ended up there. Return downstairs to the living room.
Position the pillows, open the app, plug in the headphones, and you’re ready. Until the dogs starts whining to join you. Pat on the chair so she can squeeze in between the arm rest and your hip pillow. No rule against a dog joining your mediation. Notice she kinda smells. Thank goodness for the diffuser. Make another mental note to call the groomer. Your mental notes are starting to crowd one another. Push them aside for now. Restart the app. Realize you’re running low on time. Mediation will take about 15 minutes. You’ll be cutting it close.
Two minutes in and you’re already feeling the effects as you concentrate on your breathing. Think about how grateful you are to have found a mediation practice. Your mind drifts to all of the things you are grateful for including your husband which reminds you that you need to do his laundry which reminds you that you need to clean your closet that’s gotten out of control which reminds you to refocus. Breathing again, four counts in, four counts out, think about prayer requests, who you need to focus on and send love to during your mediation.
While you’re trying to remember that name of that friend of a friend who needs prayer for that thing that you can’t remember, your phone buzzes. Text message from your high schooler reminding you that he needs five bucks for his homecoming T-shirt. Open your reminders app so you won’t forget. Record several things you need to do today which now includes a stop by the bank for cash, which reminds you to reconcile your bank statement, which makes you wonder if you’re the only person on the planet who still reconciles their bank statement, which makes you think that might make a funny blog post, which reminds you that you should be blogging more, which makes you think of all the things you need to start doing more of like meditating.
Refocus (again) and reopen the Calm app (again) and see that you’re running low on time. You realize you still need to wash your face and put on deodorant because, even though your friends at Pilates are used to seeing you in all of your glory which normally consists of a ponytail and no makeup, they shouldn’t have to endure your dirty face and smelly pits. You hop up, leaving the hip pillows and diffuser and headphones in your mediation space, vowing to return tomorrow for Day 3 of your 46 Days of mediating. Chalk this one up under good intentions.
Mediation. It’s the thought that counts.